February 09, 2006
Written Eloquence is Overrated
There has been a lot of crap going on lately and a lot to talk about, but words really just don't seem to be coming. Text, phone, and pretty much every form of communication besides face-to-face talking has felt very ineffective lately in general. That is to say, as of recently, it has been feeling like my written words and spoken words alone don't convey all the information I want them to. I have no idea why I feel that way, but whatever, here goes.
So, I've got an interview with NEC Electronics next Tuesday morning. I have mixed feelings about the job I'm interviewing for, but all the same, I want to do well. I'm excited, happy, nervous, worried and such about the interview, but it seems the worries tend to dominate my thinking. My resumé is weak compared to some of my engineering friends, and my GPA isn't exactly awesome either. I'm not entirely sure what kind of interview questions to expect, since the job doesn't fit nicely into one of the sub-disciplines of electrical engineering. I'm worried there are more qualified candidates, that I'm going to do poorly, that something entirely unexpected is going to happen and screw me over, that they're not gonna like me, et cetera, et cetera.
And it also seems every time I start to get kinda excited about it, I start thinking about all the bad points. I've been noticing lately that I do that a lot. I guess I'm subsconsciously trying to expect little so as not to be disappointed if things don't work out; it's a self-defence mechanism I guess. I can think of more than a few incidents wherein I've gotten really excited about good things that might happen to me only to have them not quite pan out the way I wanted them to. So..., I decide that being excited leads to bad things.
Yeah, my response doesn't really seem rational to me either, but no one ever said I had a whole lot of common sense. I should probably work on that a bit.
But anyway, the interview is coming up and I'm not really sure how to prepare. I want to say I'll review something for it over the weekend, but I really have no idea what they might ask me. Oh well.
As for the rest of today, I've got a lot of work to do. But, today is also Sean's birthday! He's 22 now. He's oooooooold. Which is a sobering thought, since I'm only six months younger than he is. And I'm supposed to be leaving college and getting a real-life job in four months. Which is.., not very far away at all. I suppose, I will have to make the most of the remaining time.
So, I've got an interview with NEC Electronics next Tuesday morning. I have mixed feelings about the job I'm interviewing for, but all the same, I want to do well. I'm excited, happy, nervous, worried and such about the interview, but it seems the worries tend to dominate my thinking. My resumé is weak compared to some of my engineering friends, and my GPA isn't exactly awesome either. I'm not entirely sure what kind of interview questions to expect, since the job doesn't fit nicely into one of the sub-disciplines of electrical engineering. I'm worried there are more qualified candidates, that I'm going to do poorly, that something entirely unexpected is going to happen and screw me over, that they're not gonna like me, et cetera, et cetera.
And it also seems every time I start to get kinda excited about it, I start thinking about all the bad points. I've been noticing lately that I do that a lot. I guess I'm subsconsciously trying to expect little so as not to be disappointed if things don't work out; it's a self-defence mechanism I guess. I can think of more than a few incidents wherein I've gotten really excited about good things that might happen to me only to have them not quite pan out the way I wanted them to. So..., I decide that being excited leads to bad things.
Yeah, my response doesn't really seem rational to me either, but no one ever said I had a whole lot of common sense. I should probably work on that a bit.
But anyway, the interview is coming up and I'm not really sure how to prepare. I want to say I'll review something for it over the weekend, but I really have no idea what they might ask me. Oh well.
As for the rest of today, I've got a lot of work to do. But, today is also Sean's birthday! He's 22 now. He's oooooooold. Which is a sobering thought, since I'm only six months younger than he is. And I'm supposed to be leaving college and getting a real-life job in four months. Which is.., not very far away at all. I suppose, I will have to make the most of the remaining time.
# posted by Yann : 17:20
