March 08, 2007
I'm Too Foggy Today
For my own sake, I feel the need to write something here. I've left the field of my creative mind sit fallow for these past months, and I think I'm starting to reap some consequences of that.
I find the biggest issue with my current locale (i.e. away from all my friends, family, and familiar locations) is that I feel entirely alone.
Big surprise that.
The other issue arising from this is that I've been in school for the large majority of my life. Meeting people at school is great. It's easy to find someone in class and talk to them. You see them often, and regularly, so it's not hard to cultivate some sort of relationship from that. Even barring that, simply by virtue of two people being students on a particular campus, those two people will have something they can talk about. Even sitting in front of the library, I could probably strike up a conversation with someone else sitting nearby and have it turn into something interesting.
Out here in the real world, it's a bit harder. One large issue would be the fact that my current workplace consists of six (6!) workers, including myself. Five engineers (me being one of those), one lab technician, and one "Apps" (applications) guy that never shows up (I don't count him as one of the workers, as I've seen him just once and it wasn't during normal work hours). Of the five other workers besides myself, four are married, one is divorced, four have children, and all are at least ten years older than me.
Now, it's not that I don't like hanging out with the older people. In fact, I get along quite well with all of them at work. I am regularly chatting with two of them if I'm not doing something that requires conversation, and I'll not uncommonly have long, random, non-work related conversations with all but one of them. The issue is just that it's not quite so easy to just go to your 30+ year old friend with family and kids and just hang out. Randomly dropping by or hanging out at odd times of night just isn't really going to happen, and there's a lot of life in those ten years of existence as well, so it can be hard for me to relate to them at times.
I have actually spent some time with some of the co-workers outside of the work environment before. It's fun and all, but it'd be real nice to just have someone to hang out with.
As for meeting people outside of work, I dunno. I'm shy. People really don't believe me when I say that, but I am at times. I find it difficult to randomly go up and talk to people in the situations that I am faced with on a daily basis. I guess part of the problem is that I don't really have any hang-outs out here that I go to regularly, so there are few people I see often, or even more than once. That being the case, I could really only chat up random people that I've met just once and to me that seems a bit difficult. Yeah, I'm being a wimp, but we all have out faults. I don't want to be known as the creepy dude who randomly went up and started talking to some chick/guy who just wanted to get his god damn sandwich and get home and not be harassed by lonely old men who are trying way too hard.
The obvious suggestions to remedy the situation have been proposed to me many a time by now. Clubs, groups, church, class are the msot common I've heard I think.
Being a non-denominational kind of guy, I don't know that I would be all that comfortable in church. I'd feel like a bit of a hypocrite really, going to church with supposedly to enjoy the grace of God and such when really I was just going to meet people.
I was really stoked on the idea of attending some classes either at the university or at the community college. I had always wanted to take some more Japanese or Chinese to get my abilities up to par (or to stop them from decaying), but the issue with that is that not being a resident of the state, I'd have to pay something like thousands of clams just for a single class.
I think the price is not quite worth it for me. THOUGH, I have considered just attending classes on campus for the hell of it. I miss school, and I miss interesting lectures, what can I say?
Clubs and groups. They can be hard to find. Furthermore, finding one that I would be willing to join would be harder to find. This is the way I think I am going to go though.
Actually, I am going to go to something this week (maybe tonight?), though the primary purpose is not to meet people. I've been lazy as all hell since moving out to this town, and have not done much in the way of physical activity. I am going to remedy that and join a martial arts school so as to try and practice my old stuff and maybe learn some new stuff as well. In my own way, I'm figuring that if I can get most of my crap together, the rest will hopefully fall into place on its own.
That's a lot of hope maybe, but really, I have bigger things to worry about than feeling a bit alone at times.
At least, I think I do.
Or maybe I just think I should.
Hrmph.
I find the biggest issue with my current locale (i.e. away from all my friends, family, and familiar locations) is that I feel entirely alone.
Big surprise that.
The other issue arising from this is that I've been in school for the large majority of my life. Meeting people at school is great. It's easy to find someone in class and talk to them. You see them often, and regularly, so it's not hard to cultivate some sort of relationship from that. Even barring that, simply by virtue of two people being students on a particular campus, those two people will have something they can talk about. Even sitting in front of the library, I could probably strike up a conversation with someone else sitting nearby and have it turn into something interesting.
Out here in the real world, it's a bit harder. One large issue would be the fact that my current workplace consists of six (6!) workers, including myself. Five engineers (me being one of those), one lab technician, and one "Apps" (applications) guy that never shows up (I don't count him as one of the workers, as I've seen him just once and it wasn't during normal work hours). Of the five other workers besides myself, four are married, one is divorced, four have children, and all are at least ten years older than me.
Now, it's not that I don't like hanging out with the older people. In fact, I get along quite well with all of them at work. I am regularly chatting with two of them if I'm not doing something that requires conversation, and I'll not uncommonly have long, random, non-work related conversations with all but one of them. The issue is just that it's not quite so easy to just go to your 30+ year old friend with family and kids and just hang out. Randomly dropping by or hanging out at odd times of night just isn't really going to happen, and there's a lot of life in those ten years of existence as well, so it can be hard for me to relate to them at times.
I have actually spent some time with some of the co-workers outside of the work environment before. It's fun and all, but it'd be real nice to just have someone to hang out with.
As for meeting people outside of work, I dunno. I'm shy. People really don't believe me when I say that, but I am at times. I find it difficult to randomly go up and talk to people in the situations that I am faced with on a daily basis. I guess part of the problem is that I don't really have any hang-outs out here that I go to regularly, so there are few people I see often, or even more than once. That being the case, I could really only chat up random people that I've met just once and to me that seems a bit difficult. Yeah, I'm being a wimp, but we all have out faults. I don't want to be known as the creepy dude who randomly went up and started talking to some chick/guy who just wanted to get his god damn sandwich and get home and not be harassed by lonely old men who are trying way too hard.
The obvious suggestions to remedy the situation have been proposed to me many a time by now. Clubs, groups, church, class are the msot common I've heard I think.
Being a non-denominational kind of guy, I don't know that I would be all that comfortable in church. I'd feel like a bit of a hypocrite really, going to church with supposedly to enjoy the grace of God and such when really I was just going to meet people.
I was really stoked on the idea of attending some classes either at the university or at the community college. I had always wanted to take some more Japanese or Chinese to get my abilities up to par (or to stop them from decaying), but the issue with that is that not being a resident of the state, I'd have to pay something like thousands of clams just for a single class.
I think the price is not quite worth it for me. THOUGH, I have considered just attending classes on campus for the hell of it. I miss school, and I miss interesting lectures, what can I say?
Clubs and groups. They can be hard to find. Furthermore, finding one that I would be willing to join would be harder to find. This is the way I think I am going to go though.
Actually, I am going to go to something this week (maybe tonight?), though the primary purpose is not to meet people. I've been lazy as all hell since moving out to this town, and have not done much in the way of physical activity. I am going to remedy that and join a martial arts school so as to try and practice my old stuff and maybe learn some new stuff as well. In my own way, I'm figuring that if I can get most of my crap together, the rest will hopefully fall into place on its own.
That's a lot of hope maybe, but really, I have bigger things to worry about than feeling a bit alone at times.
At least, I think I do.
Or maybe I just think I should.
Hrmph.
# posted by Yann : 17:40
